Transformation isn't always comfortable...that's how you know things are shifting, guiding you towards what you've been striving for. To go with the flow, allow things to shed and others to fall into place. Pace yourself, relax, breathe. Yes, it can feel nauseating, stressful, manic, angry, confusing, etc. Reflect on these and Trust your path, your energy, your experience, your journey, your Self. This is the alchemy of replacing fear of the unknown with curiosity. Feel into it, detach, and go from there. One step at a time. You are infinite. And yes, also human. You are not limited or impossible. Neither are your dreams and goals.
I frequently find myself setting intentions, mostly interpersonal. Upon the New Year, I started with a list of goals that range from different ways to add more fun and adventure to my life, my family, and various career and community service goals. A list of 27. Within days, my reality was flipped upside down with ungrounding news and circumstances that only fueled and inspired me to put these goals in action immediately. The first month isn't even over and I've gotten damn near 5+ of these accomplished. Not small goals, but do go a long way.
Steps taken may not be understood by others, and therefore may easily feel rejecting. Check in. Don't reject or neglect you.. or those around you. Accept you and all that feels right for you as well as everyone in your life. Balance. Things may be "flawed", including people, including ourselves, but that doesn't mean they aren't beautiful. Are you aware of the beauty and valuing the love in all things/those around you and within yourself? Through all that is "dark", fear, lies, and illusion? That, my friend, is the bigger picture. Attract it.
Something about myself...